Thursday, June 25, 2009

Today


To Mom:


I am thinking of you today. Could it really be possible that you left us 9 years ago? In some ways, it seems like only yesterday...in other ways, it feels like forever.


I am thinking of you today. Amidst the laundry, the fussy baby, the giggling girls, the cleaning, the errands...my thoughts keep drifting back to you.


I am thinking of you today. I am remembering all the good times. I am smiling about childhood memories and crying about the end that came to quickly.


I am thinking of you today. I am wishing that you were here to see your grand daughters and your grandson, to know your fabulous son-in-law.


I have a lump in my throat today as I think of you, but today I allow myself some extra time to remember...and I just might take a walk, chat with a stranger, tickle my kids, smell a lemon, call a friend, or listen to some jazz music, because these things remind me of you.


And even though it is painful, I never want to forget...you...amazing you. Thank goodness, we have eternity to look forward to.

(I wish I had some more recent photos of my mom in digital format, but I do not...this picture was taken in 1980- before Katy bug joined our fam in 1981. I'm the one in the boots!)

9 comments:

M.Howerton said...

Thanks for making me cry.
This is beautiful.

The picture is adorable and your girls look JUST like you! I had to look twice to make sure it was you and not Ashton or Jordan in a halloween costume :)

Heather said...

What a beautiful reminder at how precious life is, and our relationships with each other. As you think of your mother, I am sure she is thinking of you too. I am so grateful for the gospel and the sealing power of the priesthood. All that matters is our families.
Have an amazing day :)

Kim said...

I didn't know your mom, but I know you...so she must be an amazing person. <3 you.

Becky said...

Should've hugged you at Zumba! What a blessing to hear about your mom. You are amazing and I am sure she is, too!
Don't Eternal Families rock?!?!?!!?

Hubba's Thoughts said...

Beautiful post Jamie!! You made me cry and get a lump in my throat! You are so wonderful, your Mom would/is proud of you!!

SAHM Scrapper said...

That is awesome. I used to think Ashton looks so much like you. Now I think Jordan does.

Jiles Pfamily said...

J- I can't beleive it's been 9 years. I miss your mom. I learned so much from her in the short time I knew her. I loved they way her house felt. The order, peace, love, fun and acceptance. I hope someday I can immitade that in my house some day. love you.

Adolescent Family said...

Ditto! That was really wonderful. I am crying as well.

I am so grateful for the gospel and our prespective!

Oh, and Jordan is totally you! WOW!:)

Rebecca said...

Thanks for making me be a better mom- at least for a day! Thank goodness for testimonies!

Regan's 10th Birthday!